Ready. Set. Sail!
Why hello there! My name is Jess and I’m a blogger who likes to write about her struggles with bipolar disorder.
Done! No. Wait. I’m supposed to go into detail. Damn it!
Sorry. Let me back up a bit and give some context (be patient I’m a little goofy right now). So a few weeks ago I was asked by one of my followers to give some background information about myself. Tell my life story. I’m strongly opposed to that partly because I think I’m really boring. Don’t get me wrong, drama likes to follow me everywhere. I never asked for it to follow me. It’s a creepy stalker. I’ve called the cops on it several times but it keeps following me. Probably going to get shanked soon. Not going to think about it right now.
What I AM going to do is start writing about my life so people can get a glimpse into who I REALLY am. Who is Jess Melancholia? Some of you are curious and that sucks because I’m not sure I’ll entertain you. That’s not the point of my blog but it’s a nice side effect. If I miss something and mention it later, don’t yell at me for not including it! It’s because I’m getting old (just turned 28 yesterday) and my memory goes in and out. Seen the movie Inside Out? No? Well then you’re a communist and you need to go back to the Cold War era (sincerely apologize to all my pro-communist bloggers. That was out of line).
If I’m ever going to write a book about myself (been told several times lately that I should), then this will be a nice copy/paste scenario. The problem with something like this is I don’t consider myself a good writer (been told otherwise) and I am having the HARDEST time trying to find out where to start. Dr. Kay Redfield Jamison in her book An Unquiet Mind: A Memoir of Moods and Madness starts her story with the time when she was in elementary school and saw an Air Force jet crash into the trees near her school playground! Like. Holy fuck! What a way to start a memoir! That dead pilot actually saved them by sacrificing himself and became a hero so it’s not like it was an attack. But yeah. I don’t have a pitch like that to start off on but I did notice one thing she did do:
Focus on how her manic depression culminated over time and shaped her into the person she is today.
That, to me, sounds like a good idea and I will be using that theme. Some things I’ll add in for personality and because I just feel like it, but I’m not writing a book right now so a George R.R. Martin size blog post is stupid, unnecessary, and won’t help you (Spoiler alert: I had a Red wedding. No it didn’t end like that!).
So, across the next several posts, I’ll be revealing more intimate details about my life. Hopefully none of you will figure out my actual identity but if you do KEEP YOUR MOUTH SHUT!!!!
Thanks for reading and commenting and following. Hopefully this doesn’t deter you away from me. I really don’t want these posts to be enormous but I also want to get my feet wet. The lengths of the posts will vary greatly in size and in frequency. I’ll try to keep the posts shorter than 5000 words maximum but you know how I like to ramble. Let me know if I need to elaborate on an event and I can go back and edit and update. If it’s a personal question and you really don’t want to publicize it, I encourage you to go to my Contact page and email me. Trust me. I won’t hack you or Snapchat or whatever the young people are doing nowadays :-). Trolls will be ignored and burned at the stake.
I’m going to start with my childhood. For future reference, some of the events may be triggering. I’ll keep putting disclaimers where I can but be vocal if something upsets you or is a little too much for some people to handle. That and I cuss so #sorrynotsorry!
Alright, we good? Let’s get this party started! Grab your compass and follow me!