Hello everyone. I’m on my phone writing this post even though I absolutely hate the dynamics of the WP mobile editor because I need to get this out as soon as I can.
I’m so very sorry about this mess. This while thing got blown way out of proportion. I wasn’t trying to start a war. I was trying raise awareness about a blog post I found offensive. In this post I tried to reason with a man that I thought was being ignorant and malicious. My heart broke when I read his post and what made it worse was the response I got when I tried to reach out to him.
But Jesus I didn’t want the man to be bullied! Jason is a funny and compassionate guy who has helped thousands of people dying to get their blog post recognized to give them networking opportunities. That’s something that has helped me tremendously and I’d be lying if I didn’t owe a lot of my recognition to his blog.
I just reacted to what he said and it triggered me. Period. I’m sorry if that makes me hypersensitive. But regardless, my feelings and struggles are valid. Everyone’s is!
A lot of people recently let me in on his internal struggles and how he also been suffering. If I did anything to further damage that I’m truly very sorry. I would never purposely trigger someone because I know what that dark pit feels like when someone pushes you in it.
Being bipolar is hard enough as it is without trivializing our experiences. For those of you who read bipolar blogs or know friends or family with nipolar, you know all too well it’s a grueling life or death battle. Every. Single. Day. Everyday we deal with the demons in our head and things like that are very triggering.
Please believe me that I only wanted bipolars to stand up and not be trivialized. Whether or not that was his intent is something that I didn’t catch.
I lost my temper last night and decided to blog while angry. A huge mistake I hope to never do again.
I’m going to leave my post up the way it is. Everything I felt last night is what I felt and I am allowed to write what I want one my blog. Same to OM. He can write whatever he wants and like me don’t read it if you don’t want to.
I’d like to thank ALL of you who commented with such thoughtful positive feedback as well as you who felt comfortable to express your neutrality or disagreement. I don’t turn away comments.
Please please feel free to let me know if what I say is triggering or offensive. I promise I’ll go back and edit and change things.
Please forgive me for the clusterfuck.
I know that won’t stop the traffic because it’s already out there. But maybe I can do some good.
Jason if you are listening, please know I have and still respect you. Your words were taken to heart but that doesn’t mean you aren’t an admirable individual with a caring heart. Thank you for all your help and the help you give others.