BpHope Post #8

Ready. Set. Sail! Hey everyone. Just saw my pdoc and got my meds upped. Feeling really low. Lots of high levels of anxiety… I sat in the car today, dressed up in my cute little pink skirt and black blouse. Hair and makeup done up. I parked it in the garage and closed myself inside. … More BpHope Post #8

I Should Be Happy

Ready. Set. Sail! Here I am again…for the 500th time this week. Sorry I’ve been giving you guys so much reading material. Fuck! You think I’d learn to shut up! I feel so hollow. So damn lonely and sad. I wanna scream but I don’t have the energy. I’m lifeless and cold. A cloud of … More I Should Be Happy

ā€œMake Me Feel Aliveā€ – Shatter Me (Lindsey Stirling)

If only the clockwork could speak I wouldn’t be so alone We’d burn every magnet and spring And spiral into the unknown Somebody shine a light I’m frozen by the fear in me Somebody make me feel alive And shatter me So cut me from the line Dizzy, spinning endlessly Somebody make me feel alive … More ā€œMake Me Feel Aliveā€ – Shatter Me (Lindsey Stirling)

Suppressing My Nature: Sex And My Needs

Ready. Set. Sail! (Real Mania Trigger Warning!!!) I’ve been really quiet lately and people are starting to wonder if I’m OK and what’s going on.Ā So here is the deal. I’ve been going through a rollercoaster of emotions lately. I can’t even begin to tell you how frustrated, scared, angry, depressed, and confused I’ve been. Some … More Suppressing My Nature: Sex And My Needs

Who Run The World?

Ready. Set. Sail! I never post this often but I gotta speak. Nancy…this one’s for you! Let’s sit down and have a nice chat for a minute. Here is a quick question: How many of you have been hurt by a man? Lied to? Blindsided? Here is the situation. I’m a nice person. I tend … More Who Run The World?