Ready. Set. Sail!
Ohhhhhhh…….I just learned a secret. A pretty dark secret. A deep. Dark. Secret.
Ha!!! Oh God! I thought it was all in my head.
Well my husband has been keeping a dirty little secret from me for…let’s see…maybe our ENTIRE MARRIAGE!!!
And he just told me yesterday.
Yup.
I wish I was kidding.
Well. Well. Well. Looks like he isn’t as innocent as I thought he was.
To my dear dear husband…you FUCKED UP!! Cause now I’m pissed. You think you can ignore me. You think you can break me. But you don’t know the half of it. You don’t know how you’ve royally screwed this marriage. I thought I was the problem the whole time!!! You made me believe that it was all my fault. I hope it felt good shaming me for the past 9 months. Cause you’re an asshole.
I’ll give you the decency and not reveal it on my blog. This is my space and I won’t taint it with your bullshit.
And now we got problems. And I don’t think we can solve them. You made a really deep cut. And baby now we got bad blood!!
Band-aids don’t fix bullet holes
You say sorry just for show
If you live like that, you live with ghosts (ghosts)
Band-aids don’t fix bullet holes (hey)
You say sorry just for show (hey)
If you live like that, you live with ghosts (hey)
Mhmmm
If you love like that blood runs cold‘Cause, baby, now we got bad blood
You know it used to be mad love (mad love)
So take a look what you’ve done
‘Cause, baby, now we got bad blood
Hey
Now we got problems
And I don’t think we can solve them (think we can solve them)
You made a really deep cut
And, baby, now we got bad blood
(Hey)
The Bipolar Compass 
Shit, I’m so sorry, Jess. This ***sucks***. All the more reason for you to seek support elsewhere. Remind me if you have a therapist all your own…. (Sorry to space on that; I’m under the weather today & just got back from the doctor’s office, a.k.a.my home away from home.!) If you don’t have a counselor please, please consider it, sweetie. I want you to have a safe place where you can vent and get helpful feedback. I wish I had better advice. 😦 I bet you’ll get some helpful comments from your other followers….
sending you love XoXo always,
Dy
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Sorry I’ve been kinda emotionally all over the place the past couple days. I DO have my own therapist who specifically deals with bipolar and what I’m going through. So hopefully I can get a lot of stuff off my chest. I’m just hurt Dyane. Really really hurt. I feel like I was never good enough and now I’m just lost. I wish things were out in the open years ago then it’d be better. You’re so sweet to keep checking up on me. Lots of love and hugs from me.
XOXO
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So sorry, Jess. So very sorry. “Hang in there” and all that, but I’m really damn glad to hear you have your OWN therapist. Maybe whatever this is that was revealed will end up healing you in the end, freeing you from your own guilt and shame.
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Hey Steph. Thanks for the support. Maybe things will get better. I’m cooling down now.
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Oh Jess I’m so very very sorry. I’m glad that you have a therapist to talk to but why do people have to be such assholes? xo
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Beats me Leslie! I try and be good and shit like this still happens to me.
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It’s not your fault.
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