Ready. Set. Sail!
Alright tribe and friends, I have a question: How many times have you been in a situation where you basically explored all options and looked at things from every single angle you could find and could not for the love of Zeus figure out a way to solve the problem? Probably a lot of you are nodding your heads in agreement. Maybe all of you are. I dunno. But basically, you tried your very best and weren’t able to find a solution so you had to just accept defeat, give up, give in, and move on.
So yeah. That’s where I’m at right now with my bipolar. I’ve completely given up. Not on fighting it. I’m letting the emotions take over and do their thing and I’m allowing myself to experience my symptoms. I’ve been crazy manic the past couple weeks and now things are starting to head down and yesterday I just felt the cold dark blanket of despair cover over me. I cried a few times but not enough to warrant any real concerns from my husband.
For those of you who are curious, he had his surgery and will be doing a follow up later today with his doctor to see if he is going to need to go in for chemo. We don’t think so but cross your fingers anyways!! I’ll make sure to update people when that happens.
So here is the thing..
…I’ve been going through some stuff and I haven’t told people about it…
(Gasp! Jess isn’t being honest on her blog?!?!?!? The audacity!!! Burn her!!! Burn the witch!!)
…I know. I KNOW!!!
I’m so sorry. I was supposed to be honest and everything. Trust me when I say I need to delay the honesty for just a little, little, tiny bit longer. It won’t make sense unless I have the full story so be patient! But trust me when I say I’m fine and have good news to share once all the dust settles.
Aside from that, may I take a moment to vent? It’s the reason I can’t sleep and I kinda need to get this bipolar nonsense out of my system.
FUCK!!!! Cock-sucking motherfucking bullshit!! ARGH!!!! Why in fuck’s name is all this garbage happening to me?!?!?! Fucking God damn garbage. Stupid ass cunt-faced unicorn rainbow shit smells like all the cockweasels jizzed themselves!! Weiner-gobbling fucktard!!
…OK…OK… (*heavy breathing*)…I feel a little better now. You’ll understand soon enough.
That concludes our broadcast. Tune in next time for a turtle fucking a walrus. It should be just as graphic as it sounds!