Ready. Set. Sail!
So…here we are. I guess I have some explaining to do don’t I? I bet you’re wondering where in fuck’s name I’ve been. Well to be completely honest, I’ve been hiding.
I’ve been hiding from myself.
I’ve been hiding from you guys.
I’ve been hiding from life in general.
I decided last month that I was tired of fighting the Mania and decided to give in. Now there is a whole story here so you might want to pull up a chair and buckle up. It’s going to be a bumpy ride. For those of you who get squeamish easily…why the fuck are you on my blog!?!?!? Shoo! Shoo!
OK there we go. Time to start the fun:
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Remember when I said I felt like I was trapped again in the Forbidden Forest? Well I’m still there, and the whole Forest is completely on fire. Hot, burning flames lick the sides of my cheeks as I make my way through the trees. I am engulfed in it. Lost and unable to find my way back to the Trail of Stability. I’m so deep in these woods this time. I’m not sure if I can make it out let alone survive the trip.
You see, things between my husband and I went sour in December. Since the surgery for his cancer, his levels of testosterone have fallen dramatically. So much so that it’s rare for him to…er..um..*cough cough* “get it up.” With that, combined with the slowly increasing Mania on my end, let’s just say we were fighting over sex a lot. At one point, I decided that he should open the marriage up because if he couldn’t be there for me intimately, that I should be allowed to find it somewhere else. To my surprise, he reluctantly agreed.
With this, I was allowed to online chat and meet up as long as no sex was involved. It seemed fair so we both agreed, although I knew that he wasn’t going to be happy about it. Regardless, I decided to contact Mark (ewwwwww……boooo) because…eh…and convenience and all that jazz.
For those of you who are new (which is a lot of you apparently WTF I’m gone for a couple months and now I have all these new followers!!!) I suggest looking up some of my old posts for context.
Like this one!
So anyways, Mark contacted me a few times but every time I got close to meeting with him, I chickened out. I’d either say I’m on my period or I’m sick or something. I just couldn’t get myself to do it. Meanwhile the Mania kept building and building and the more manic I got, the more hypersexual I became. Eventually I caved in and said yes.
We decided to meet up on a cold rainy night after I received a torrent of messages saying how much he misses me and wants me and blah blah blah. What I didn’t expect was how much he has changed since the last time we met up. And I’m not talking about looks, although he did lose a lot of excess weight and gained some muscle, I mean personality. There was something off about him that I couldn’t quite place. He was quiet and aloof. He seemed distant.
Jess: “Hey sorry. There was a lot of traffic and people driving like 65 mph on the highway! Ugghh. How are you?”
Mark: “Meh. Horny.”
Jess: “You’re always horny.”
Mark: “Come here.”
I leaned in to kiss him thinking that he wanted me to make the first move. Without any warning, Mark pushes me up against the door, hand gripping my throat tightly and whispers in my ear, “You’re mine, you hear me? You’re MY little married slut.”
Panicked and shaking, I tried with both hands to pull his hand away from my neck but I wasn’t strong enough. Luckily he let go. Unfortunately, it doesn’t end there.
To be continued…
Oh dear, while excited to hear the rest of the details, and learn from them, this doesn’t sound good. Not good at all batman.
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Lol. I wish Batman was here to help me with my problems
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Maybe you could fashion a bat symbol out of some branches and use the light from the fire in the woods to request his assistance 😛
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Yours is the most dramatic blog I know. Please don’t stop sharing. And uh hello… Batman? This is me. I think this is a sign.
I don’t think you were following me, but I’ve left WordPress and would love to have you as a follower because if anything maybe my adventures can temporarily get your mind off things from time to time.
So would you pleeeeeease go to batmantravels.com and subscribe by email on the subscription widget?
I won’t be on wordpress anymore so I hope this isn’t goodbye! I hope your site has an email subscription dealio too so I can subscribe cuz this reader is going bye bye for Batman 😉
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Hi Eric. I’m so sorry I never made my way around to your blog. I’ve been out and I haven’t been even following my friends blogs. I’ll head over to your site and subscribe. If you want to subscribe by email, go to the very top right of my website and find the FOLLOW button and enter your email address. It’ll send you updates as I make more posts. Thanks so much for your follow. I look forward to checking out your blog in the upcoming days 😄
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I’m gonna do that right now. I love having followers who are real people, know what I mean? Thank you! I promise to bring u comic relief and travel adventures. I’ll also seek justice cuz I’m Batman. 😉
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Fuck yeah!
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I got your subscribe request. Thank you! And I was just thinking I can keep my wordpress reader on, I don’t have to delete it. So I’ll stay perfectly in tune with your new posts too.
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I’ve missed you! Don’t leave us hanging on too long, you stopped where I was concerned for you! Glad you are back.
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I won’t leave you hanging. I’m OK though Ms. Ava. Thanks so much for checking up on me. Hugs! XOXO
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Absolutely compelling read. You’re writing is a great examination of the vulnerability of the human condition. There’s so much explored here.
Really enjoyed the contrast of the soft exposition to the unexpected dramatic turn at the end. Extremely well written!
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Oh my God. Wow. I don’t know what to say. This has got to be the best comment I’ve ever received. I’m so glad you liked it. My life unfortunately is more dramatic than I’d like but at least it makes for a good read. Thank you Cameron. You just made my entire week.😆😆😆
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I’m so happy that my simple observations have given you a smile. Your real life may be more dramatic but the way you tell the story is captivating. It’s a mark of a great story teller to take something as messy as autobiographical writing and keep the reader in suspense.
It’s a damn good read and truly shows off your talents!
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Oh Jess, honey, I’m so sorry. I’m almost afraid to read the next installment, but I will, and I hope to God that it worked out ok, because right now, it seems quite frightening.
Interestingly enough, I gained followers while I was away as well. I’m not sure what brought them, but it’s cool that they are there.
❤
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Everything worked out fine Leslie. I may have made it sound more scary than it was but I’m just trying to recount the events as accurately as possible. I’ll let you know soon what happens next.
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I’m looking forward to it, and I’m sooo glad that you are ok.
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Damn Jess….
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What does that mean?
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