Hi. I’m back.
Well this is awkward. Akward? Awwkwaaard? I don’t know how to spell it. Leave me alone!
Sorry, I should probably give some context.
I’m extremely depressed. I need help.
I got a new job a few weeks ago and in my hypomanic attempt to be the best employee possible I think I burned myself out. Now I hate myself, I feel like I have no energy left, and I think my moods crashed.
I feel like death. Words are hard.
No I havent seen my therapist.
Words are hard.
I’m scared. I’m terrified that I’ll never be able to go back to work again. What happened to my perserverance. I’m hiding under the covers wanting to feel something other than complete sadness. I’ve been crying all morning.
Why can’t I be normal? I hate this so much. I’m so tired of it. It robs me of everything that I am. All the things that make me happy. It keeps getting harder and harder. I just want me old life back before the bipolar. I’m so sick of this shit. I don’t want to feel like this anymore. I wish I was dead.