So I quit my job last week. Feel like I failed myself. The desire to keep going is so weak. I don’t know what I’m going to do. All I want is to lay here. I feel nothing.


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  1. Wishing you strength in your struggle. Life is good, except when it isn’t … so just keep your eye on the prize, and with good support you’ll settle into a good stretch once again. Hope it’s soon. Hang in there girl. (My 34-year-old daughter is also Bipolar II, and she’s currently in hospital weathering a depressive phase.)

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  2. Hang in there, Jess! It can feel like this is how life is going to be forever but it’s not. This is just a season in your life and you will get past it.

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  3. No sunshine spewing or pompom waving from me, Jess. All I can say is that those of us on the bipolar coaster know all too well how it feels to be super productive and awesome at juggling it all, only to get worn down and find ourselves either in a depression or Numbland. That’s the very definition of the disorder, really, never feeling the way we should.
    Feel what you do even if it is nothing and just keep reminding yourself that it’s the disorder, it does not define you as a person. ❤

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  4. I completely understand. I wouldn’t be lying if I said I didn’t. I’ve been in the same funk for awhile now. It’s been the hardest part of my year. I only just these past two days felt enough energy and strength to get out of the house. Some days it’s just too damn hard. You’ll get there in your own time. Not anyone else’s. Much healing, strength, patience and love to you.

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  5. Hang in there, as the spouse of a struggling BP Wife know that your struggles are Our Struggles too… we don’t give up on you and we feel your pain as deeply as you do. I’m so sorry…. one breath, one minute, one hour, one day at a time. Robt

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  6. Thanks for sharing a relatable experience. I’ve taken on jobs enthusiastically, overpromising then when the panic, indignation, fed upness, worn feeling comes I accidentally purposefully end up being a no show. No notice, usually. Lots of shame afterwards. Its finally been not having a job that has allowed the insurance and time to get help. I had the realization at therapy that its health. Quitting for other health matters seems okay but sometimes my reasons don’t feel valid enough. That I should have and should be more. Our reasons, our health care is valid or so I want to believe and stand up for in my self talk.

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