I’m sorry. I’m not ignoring anyone. I’m just so depressed. I can’t get out of bed most of the time. I don’t shower very often. I don’t know how long this post will be. I see all your messages and I’ll get to them soon. All I do is cry now. I can’t decide if I want to live or die. I can’t decide if I need help or want to be left alone. I dunno.
Can someone advise?
You are in the same place I am right now. Bottom line, we both know it’s the depression and YES, we do want to live. We just don’t want to live like this. I have no answers but know you are not alone. Keep fighting. The fat pegacorn isn’t singing just yet 😉
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Thank you Morgue. You have no idea how much I needed to hear from you.
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Maybe it’s the season-how it ever changes.
Maybe it’s just being bipolar.
Prayer seems to have stopped.
Can’t stand being alone and can’t stand the noise of others.
Let us be in our tiny little cell.
Just for a little while.
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What a beautiful poem. Thank you for writing it
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You are so worth it jess! I know I don’t know you well but I would so hate anything to happen to you! You gotta stay on earth! Earth needs you! You will get through this! You can because you are strong! ❤ love, Carol anne xxx
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Love you Carol. Thanks!
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Love you too Jess, and I got your back where all here for each other supporting each other through this tough times we all care 😘
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THank you Carol for never giving up on me!
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If there’s one thing I’ve learnt, it’s just roll with it. So hard when do when life places responsibilities at your feet. Keep going through the motions, do your best and keep your expectations low. Bounce back when you can, your mind and body will tell you when. Sometimes we have no choice but being a passenger. That’s ok.
When everything screams give up, scream back. My pillow cops it. The stereo up loud and scream. Oh, and listen to those around you who are telling you you’re worth the fight, they love you. Our minds lie. Dont believe it.
Because I can tell you how valued you are.
Youre irreplaceable.
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I remembered this and it felt like a weight had been lifted off my shoulders. I felt like I could do this at my own pace and now I think I have the strength to come back 🙂
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Long time no hear! I’m sorry things are rough right now. The one thing to remember is that these feelings will eventually end, even though it might not seem like it right now this very second. Participate in some self-care, baby steps. Thinking of you. xoxo
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I did some self care like you said Iggy and now I feel like I have the strength to keep going
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❤ sometimes all it takes is a little love. Thinking of you xoxo
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You want to live and you want help, it’s your damn depression that is making g you think you don’t. Don’t listen to it. Get help. Call your doctor, make an appointment.
I have been in a severe depression as well, with anxiety off the charts. I’ve been thinking of ending it all. But I NEVER will. I’ll fight this infernal disease and so will you. With me. With lots and lots of love. Samina. My email is saminaraza@hotmail.com
Email me. I’m here for you. Always.
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You’re the absolute best Samina!! I couldn’t ask for a stronger support. I hope you’ve been well. Let me know how things are going.
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Are you feeling better? I hope so. My anxiety rages on. But I’m sure it’ll be gone soon. With lots of love.
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I have been thinking about you lately but couldn’t remember how to find your blog. I am so glad you are still here although I am sorry you are fight the darkness. It has been hard for me too lately and I have fallen back to one of my old addictions a number of times but I keep trying to come back and seeing your post just gives me more incentive. THANK YOU!!!!
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No thank you Shelli!! I needed to hear that you cared. IT’s so important to me to feel loved. Thanks!!!
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Please hang in there, we’re all behind you and we’re all here for you. With love and hugs.
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it’s comforting to see so many other people are going through this I feel so lost most days and just cry, there is beauty in everything and depression is like another person talking to you not your true healthy thoughts
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Thanks. It was dark but I feel like I pulled through
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No words of wisdom from me, not because I don’t want to, but because they won’t help. One word.
Breathe.
Everything else you manage is a bonus, something to feel good about. Happy, sad, wantingwanting to live, wanting to die, decisions that don’t need to be made today. So please, we know, although not in your shoes, that doing this will ultimately lead to better days.
Breathe.
One in your friends, who hides in the background for the most part, but wants the best for you and your family.
xXx
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I’m diagnosed with Bipolar 2, Anxiety, BPD and hardcore Depression. I know that feeling. Just start thinking how you can take care of yourself. Do little little things you enjoy. Make a list of things you really actually like doing. I have to take it in baby steps. I’s hard and some days I just cant get out of bed. and guess what I believe that is okay. Much love and good vibes in your direction. Please feel free to contact me my e-mail is Jeannettewhalen77@gmail.com or you can text me: 1(360)7975420. my name is Jeannette. 🙂 Anyone who reads this and is struggling too please send me a message. Its all about trying to feel better and finding peace within ourselves.
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Thanks Jeanette! Keep your chin up 😉
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Thank you. 🙂
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