Hot burning tears pouring down my face. I’m in a sec chat. Guy tells me I’m gorgeous. He wants me. I can feel his inclination. He wants me. I’m unsatisfied. I’m a criminal. A worthless inmate that walks the streets. Shattered soul clinging to the pleasure. I feel terrible. I cheat, I cheat. I can’t stop. It hurts to stop. It hurts to continue
I feel awful. My husband tells me I hurt him. My best friend won’t talk to me. It’s a mess. It’s a mess. I cling to the feeling that saturates
It heals my guilt. It numbs my pain. I’m a savage woman. Feasting on the flesh of sex and pleasure. I can’t stop. They tell me I’m the bad guy
They say I destroy.
What can I do? What can I say? It hurts to.stop. it hurts to stay silent.
Can’t you see I’m dying?!?! Can’t you see I’m tripping and ripping my skin apart?
I can’t stop. I feast on the insecurities. I divulge the damned. They need me to fulfill their pleasure.
Satan, take me and my heart. They tell me I cannot love. They tell me I’m a monster. Listen to the words. They dont understand me.
Help me God. Buddha. Vishnu. Gaia. I’m in pain. I cannot stop. I’m. Doomed.
Help me God. My flesh will be my downfall.