Hello. Hello. Hello! It’s your old pal Jess. Yikes. I fell into a deep depression. You know what they say, “What goes up must come down.” Well guess who flew too close to the sun with her mania?!?!!? I did.
So what happened? Well nothing. I ended up chatting with some guys…oh…and I contacted Mark. Did I mention that? Fuck me we spent the entire time arguing back and forth and never met up. Oh well. He got kinda angry that I ditched him for a few years. He still doesn’t understand that I’m not his to play around with. What an ass. I do feel bad for contacting him and disturbing his peace but at the same time he gets so demanding with me like we’re together or something. I’m done with him. I know I’ve said that before but the magic or whatever, the spark, is gone and I just don’t have the energy anymore. It sounds like a breakup but I don’t know what else to call it.
Anyways, after that I started to dip in my emotions, I hit a severe depression. I lost ALL motivation. I couldn’t get out of bed. I was suicidal. I had no drive or anything to go on anymore. I felt like that was it. So I called up my local hospital and talked to the ECT department head and got back on that train.
Now I feel great. I’ve had about 8 sessions since last month and I’m back baby! I know I shouldn’t disappear on you guys like I did. I kinda left at a cliffhanger. I shouldn’t do that. Sorry. I’ll try to be more consistent. Thank you to everyone who keeps reading and sharing and commenting. I really appreciate your support.
I have some cool good news…I’m starting a podcast!!! So now if you’re curious as to what I sound like, you’ll get a chance to hear me.
So I need some help, can you guys comment on what topics you want me to cover on my podcast? I have some ideas right now but I want some opinions. Let me know. Thanks.
This is gonna be big. I’m super excited! I want to try and reach a broader audience. Also, I think talking vs typing will be slightly easier. Maybe. The editing is gonna be harder. Oh well.
That’s about it. Please leave a comment about what you want to hear.