Jess Melancholia is a bipolar blogger who resides in San Diego, California with her husband and cat. She was diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder 1 in May 2014 after suffering a 6 month bipolar depression triggered by extreme family medical stresses. Through medication and a strong support system, she works tirelessly to live a “normal” life and keep her manic and depressive episodes under control. Her hobbies include playing horror video games. Her daytime profession is a molecular biologist at a biotechnology company.
Ready. Set. Sail! WARNING: SEXUAL CONTENT/TRIGGERS AHEAD!!!! This is a FICTIONAL story that I wrote myself about what could’ve happened last night: She woke up with a start! Cold sweat dripping down her forehead. Another dream about an affair. That makes one every day this week. Weak. Pathetic. Why can’t she get her emotions under … More “I’ve Done A Bad Thing.”
Ready. Set. Sail! Good morning…or whatever time of day or night it is for you. Welcome. Jess is here. What have we got on store today? Well to be honest I’m having a little bit of trouble here. I currently have the app downloaded and ready to send a message to Mark. I’ve been craving … More Craving Male Attention
Ready. Set. Sail! Woah boy! Now that all that’s off my chest I can provide an actual update for you guys. Thanks to all who supported me and my message. You guys are the best followers. I sincerely thought that last post was going to tank my blog. I guess more people are on the … More Love Shouldn’t Hurt
Ready. Set. Sail! Let me start off by saying that this is NOT going to be a post about Bipolar. It’s about me. Jess. The real RAW me. So if you can’t or don’t want to swallow this horse pill than leave right now. This isn’t for you. Let me start off by saying that … More Do NOT Read If You Are Sensitive!
It’s 5:30 a.m. and I can’t sleep. The last 24 hours have been taking a toll on my sanity. For some reason Paul had to be put back in the ICU because he aspirated and now as long as they’re filling with liquid and he needs to be on put on a ventilator. Unfortunately for … More The Straw That Broke The Camel’s Back
Ready. Set. Sail! Hey gang. It’s Jess. Back again with another update. Looks like Paul my brother is doing better. He actually got a pneumonia infection and had to be put on a ventilator for a week but he’s finally out of the ICU and back in a hospital room. It’s good enough. His kidneys … More Fire In My Veins Again
Ready. Set. Sail! (The following is a half-hazard attempt to story tell and process all the things going on in my head…) Holy FUCK. Wow. What a year! This has got to be the absolute worst year of my life. Yep. That’s an understatement. Honestly, I don’t really even know where to start. I guess … More Abuse, Neglect, And Trauma
Ready. Set. Sail! So? So what? Nothing. That’s what. Nothing at all. I should be happy. Well good news, I finished my ECT treatments. And I feel better than ever. Really…average. Normal? I guess. No job unfortunately. I don’t remember if I mentioned that or not. I guess I just wasn’t good enough or … More Bored…
Ready. Set. Sail! So….I don’t know why I’m writing this. Or, as a matter of fact, who I’m writing this for. And you know what? That’s ok. Because I started my blog with the sole intention of documenting my experiences. I shouldn’t care if anyone is reading this. I shouldn’t care if NOBODY is reading … More Gotta Get This Off My Chest
I’m not happy. I haven’t been happy. This whole time I’ve been working toward a goal that isn’t mine. I feel lost. What I’m trying to say is that my whole career up until this point has been a lie. I don’t want to work in science at least not in medical research. That’s what … More Life Is Just A Stage…
