Over Bipolar Disorder

Ready. Set. Sail! *********UPDATE*********** I took my pills. I took them reluctantly. I took them in spite. But I took them. And I’ll go ahead and try to keep taking them. I don’t want to but what you guys said is right. Those of you who commented or messaged/emailed me trying to talk some sense … More Over Bipolar Disorder

BpHope Post #9

Ready. Set. Sail! Well this whole week’s theme is about stigma. I’ve had two instances of stigma from two really good friends this week: Jan and The Dragon. Unfortunately, you can’t teach an old dog new tricks. Not that I’m calling them bitches. I would never. Bitch is a bad word. So is fuck. So … More BpHope Post #9

When Life Is Difficult And Stigma Makes It Worse

Ready. Set. Sail! In my mind, the worst part of having bipolar disorder is the sense that you can’t accomplish anything. It’s that awful feeling when you make all these wonderful goals and tell yourself that you are going to be productive only to have anxiety and depression swallow you whole. Then you realize the … More When Life Is Difficult And Stigma Makes It Worse

BpHope Post #8

Ready. Set. Sail! Hey everyone. Just saw my pdoc and got my meds upped. Feeling really low. Lots of high levels of anxiety… I sat in the car today, dressed up in my cute little pink skirt and black blouse. Hair and makeup done up. I parked it in the garage and closed myself inside. … More BpHope Post #8

I Should Be Happy

Ready. Set. Sail! Here I am again…for the 500th time this week. Sorry I’ve been giving you guys so much reading material. Fuck! You think I’d learn to shut up! I feel so hollow. So damn lonely and sad. I wanna scream but I don’t have the energy. I’m lifeless and cold. A cloud of … More I Should Be Happy