I’m sorry. I’m sorry I’ve been so quiet. A lot has happened. I’ll try and update everyone soon. I’m really scared. I’m panicking right now. I haven’t been sleeping. For weeks. I’m on Trilafon. Does anyone know if it makes you paranoid? I feel like I’m in danger. I’m edgy and nervous and scared. I … More Hello?
Hey. Man. Have things taken a turn for the worse. God I really lost my motivation. And one of my closest friends is in the hospital for trying to OD on his bipolar meds plus some other stuff. I’ve been an emotional wreck. I can’t even write. I don’t know what’s wrong. And the negative … More Guest Post: Some Words From My Husband
Ready. Set. Sail! So I guess I should say something. I haven’t in a while. Intensive outpatient has been keeping me busy. But I’m done with that now. I have a job…well…HAD a job. I quit yesterday. I couldn’t take it anymore. I felt like of the two other new girls they hired, I was … More Sinking Stone: How Bipolar Drags Us Down
Ready. Set. Sail! So, I want to clarify something, more so for my own benefit than anything else. I’m not in a relationship with Mark as normal people would refer to it as. Mark is a parasite. To quote the website “Fact Monster”: There are three different types of symbiotic relationships: mutualism, commensalism, and parasitism. … More Detox: Ripping The Parasite Off My Heart
To describe it as torture would be an understatement. It’s mental anguish. That feeling. That worm that digs and digs into your skull, trying to make it’s way in. It’s taking over my brain again. I can feel it. Twisting and turning inside my head. It’s almost painful. I’m grinding my teeth just to distract … More I Wanna Do Bad Things With You
I literally just want to blow my fucking skull off my body. My head has been pounding. I feel sick. I hate taking pills. I fucking HATE men. And I just want to run away. Yes it’s about Mark. No he’s not gone. Fuck. My. Life.
Ready. Set. Sail! I’m not ready to really write about this yet but I had to get it off my chest and I don’t care what anyone thinks. Mark pretty much told me yesterday he couldn’t do it anymore. That he is done with fucking over my relationship with my husband. We talked for a … More “Say You’ll Remember Me” – Wildest Dreams (Taylor Swift)
Ready. Set. Sail! Good afternoon everyone! I just wanted to post a quick update here to kinda go over what’s been going on in my head/life. I was going to post something here in February to address the previous post but I got what seemed to be a sort of stomach flu. It lasted for … More March Update – Sex, Religion, & Bipolar
Ready. Set. Sail! (Warning: Contains explicit sexual content. Reader discretion is advised.) If you haven’t read my previous entry, go ahead and do it right now so you’ll understand the context of this part of the story a little more. Don’t worry, I’ll wait… …(*Jeopardy theme song plays in the background*)… …. …. OK! We’re … More Feeding The Fire: Third Degree Burns
Ready. Set. Sail! So…here we are. I guess I have some explaining to do don’t I? I bet you’re wondering where in fuck’s name I’ve been. Well to be completely honest, I’ve been hiding. I’ve been hiding from myself. I’ve been hiding from you guys. I’ve been hiding from life in general. I decided last … More Feeding The Fire: Walking On Hot Coals