Ready. Set. Sail! WARNING: SEXUAL CONTENT/TRIGGERS AHEAD!!!! This is a FICTIONAL story that I wrote myself about what could’ve happened last night: She woke up with a start! Cold sweat dripping down her forehead. Another dream about an affair. That makes one every day this week. Weak. Pathetic. Why can’t she get her emotions under … More “I’ve Done A Bad Thing.”
Ready. Set. Sail! Good morning…or whatever time of day or night it is for you. Welcome. Jess is here. What have we got on store today? Well to be honest I’m having a little bit of trouble here. I currently have the app downloaded and ready to send a message to Mark. I’ve been craving … More Craving Male Attention
Ready. Set. Sail! Hey gang. It’s Jess. Back again with another update. Looks like Paul my brother is doing better. He actually got a pneumonia infection and had to be put on a ventilator for a week but he’s finally out of the ICU and back in a hospital room. It’s good enough. His kidneys … More Fire In My Veins Again
Ready. Set. Sail! Hey everybody!! My Depression is gone. I’m in a special place between Mania and Depression. Like, trouble sleeping and energetic but still feel like murdering me and everyone else I know. Ever get that? I feel like I’m not the only one. But yeah been SUPER BUSY. I got a job!!! HOLY … More Jess is Getting Upset!
***********************************TRIGGER WARNING****************************** Jesus I had a long day yesterday. I don’t know guys I think I’m broken. I think it’s finally happened. Nothing. Empty. I’ve run out of steam. There is nothing left in me right now. I thought I was doing better. The mania started to creep in slowly. I thought “Yeah I … More Too Weak To End It
Ready. Set. Sail! Hello everyone. I think today is a good day to address some of those questions you all sent me. Unfortunately, I can’t find them…I do have one person’s question that was emailed to me that I will address now. If you guys want to send/resend me more questions I’ll be happy to … More Jess Melancholia Q&A Contest – RESULTS!!
Ready. Set. Sail! There’s this weird unsteadiness I get whenever I think about my blog. It feels almost unnecessary but at the same time crucial to the bipolar community. I write mostly about a symptom hardly anyone on the planet has. Heck, some days, I don’t even believe it. Maybe I’m just weak. Maybe it’s … More Feeding The Fire: New Year, Same Issues
Hey. Man. Have things taken a turn for the worse. God I really lost my motivation. And one of my closest friends is in the hospital for trying to OD on his bipolar meds plus some other stuff. I’ve been an emotional wreck. I can’t even write. I don’t know what’s wrong. And the negative … More Guest Post: Some Words From My Husband
Ready. Set. Sail! So, I want to clarify something, more so for my own benefit than anything else. I’m not in a relationship with Mark as normal people would refer to it as. Mark is a parasite. To quote the website “Fact Monster”: There are three different types of symbiotic relationships: mutualism, commensalism, and parasitism. … More Detox: Ripping The Parasite Off My Heart
To describe it as torture would be an understatement. It’s mental anguish. That feeling. That worm that digs and digs into your skull, trying to make it’s way in. It’s taking over my brain again. I can feel it. Twisting and turning inside my head. It’s almost painful. I’m grinding my teeth just to distract … More I Wanna Do Bad Things With You