I literally just want to blow my fucking skull off my body. My head has been pounding. I feel sick. I hate taking pills. I fucking HATE men. And I just want to run away. Yes it’s about Mark. No he’s not gone. Fuck. My. Life.
Ready. Set. Sail! I’m not ready to really write about this yet but I had to get it off my chest and I don’t care what anyone thinks. Mark pretty much told me yesterday he couldn’t do it anymore. That he is done with fucking over my relationship with my husband. We talked for a … More “Say You’ll Remember Me” – Wildest Dreams (Taylor Swift)
Ready. Set. Sail! Good afternoon everyone! I just wanted to post a quick update here to kinda go over what’s been going on in my head/life. I was going to post something here in February to address the previous post but I got what seemed to be a sort of stomach flu. It lasted for … More March Update – Sex, Religion, & Bipolar
Ready. Set. Sail! (Warning: Contains explicit sexual content. Reader discretion is advised.) If you haven’t read my previous entry, go ahead and do it right now so you’ll understand the context of this part of the story a little more. Don’t worry, I’ll wait… …(*Jeopardy theme song plays in the background*)… …. …. OK! We’re … More Feeding The Fire: Third Degree Burns
Ready. Set. Sail! So…here we are. I guess I have some explaining to do don’t I? I bet you’re wondering where in fuck’s name I’ve been. Well to be completely honest, I’ve been hiding. I’ve been hiding from myself. I’ve been hiding from you guys. I’ve been hiding from life in general. I decided last … More Feeding The Fire: Walking On Hot Coals
Ready. Set. Sail! So I’m here to say a few words. In truth, things have been a little rocky for me. I’ve been quiet these past few weeks…out of embarrassment really. I don’t know why I can’t just be open and honest with myself on my blog. It makes me nervous being so open. I … More Feeding The Fire: Up In Flames
Ready. Set. Sail! (Mania Trigger warning! Explicit sexual content!) I’m not doing so good right now. I’m really fucking manic. I’ve been manic for about a week or so now and it’s been really taking me out of focus with reality. My brain is going so fast I feel like I can’t keep a string … More Feeding The Fire: Out Of The Frying Pan…
Ready. Set. Sail! Yes it’s late. I know. I can’t sleep. Don’t get me wrong. My body is exhausted but my mind is wide awake. Monday we had a 4th of July pool party at my place and I just completely wore myself out! That and I’m still a little drunk. I woke up to the … More Feeding The Fire: Avoiding My Appetence
Ready. Set. Sail! Hey guys. Thanks for the supportive comments. I’m feeling a little better today. Still in a funk but practicing mindfulness. Friends and followers helped talk me through the depression and I upped my antidepressants so I’m coming back up. Not as bad as yesterday. Need more mood stabilizer I think because I’ve … More Huffington Post and IBPF Blogger Now!
Ready. Set. Sail! (Real Mania Trigger Warning!!!) I’ve been really quiet lately and people are starting to wonder if I’m OK and what’s going on. So here is the deal. I’ve been going through a rollercoaster of emotions lately. I can’t even begin to tell you how frustrated, scared, angry, depressed, and confused I’ve been. Some … More Suppressing My Nature: Sex And My Needs