***********************************TRIGGER WARNING****************************** Jesus I had a long day yesterday. I don’t know guys I think I’m broken. I think it’s finally happened. Nothing. Empty. I’ve run out of steam. There is nothing left in me right now. I thought I was doing better. The mania started to creep in slowly. I thought “Yeah I … More Too Weak To End It
Ready. Set. Sail! Hello everyone. I think today is a good day to address some of those questions you all sent me. Unfortunately, I can’t find them…I do have one person’s question that was emailed to me that I will address now. If you guys want to send/resend me more questions I’ll be happy to … More Jess Melancholia Q&A Contest – RESULTS!!
Ready. Set. Sail! There’s this weird unsteadiness I get whenever I think about my blog. It feels almost unnecessary but at the same time crucial to the bipolar community. I write mostly about a symptom hardly anyone on the planet has. Heck, some days, I don’t even believe it. Maybe I’m just weak. Maybe it’s … More Feeding The Fire: New Year, Same Issues
To describe it as torture would be an understatement. It’s mental anguish. That feeling. That worm that digs and digs into your skull, trying to make it’s way in. It’s taking over my brain again. I can feel it. Twisting and turning inside my head. It’s almost painful. I’m grinding my teeth just to distract … More I Wanna Do Bad Things With You
Ready. Set. Sail! So…here we are. I guess I have some explaining to do don’t I? I bet you’re wondering where in fuck’s name I’ve been. Well to be completely honest, I’ve been hiding. I’ve been hiding from myself. I’ve been hiding from you guys. I’ve been hiding from life in general. I decided last … More Feeding The Fire: Walking On Hot Coals
Now that you’re out of my life I’m so much better You thought that I’d be weak without you But I’m stronger You thought that I’d be broke without you But I’m richer You thought that I’d be sad without you I laugh harder You thought I wouldn’t grow without you Now I’m wiser … More “Keep On Survivin’” – Survivor (Destiny’s Child)
Ready. Set. Sail! So…um…I need help. I’ve been hiding this from my blog for a while. I guess you could say I was shielding it from the deep dirty scum that could taint it. But that’s not the point of this blog is it? It’s not supposed to be a squeaky clean Las Vegas restroom … More Please I Need Marriage Advice
Ready. Set. Sail! (Mania Trigger warning! Explicit sexual content!) I’m not doing so good right now. I’m really fucking manic. I’ve been manic for about a week or so now and it’s been really taking me out of focus with reality. My brain is going so fast I feel like I can’t keep a string … More Feeding The Fire: Out Of The Frying Pan…
Ready. Set. Sail! Yes it’s late. I know. I can’t sleep. Don’t get me wrong. My body is exhausted but my mind is wide awake. Monday we had a 4th of July pool party at my place and I just completely wore myself out! That and I’m still a little drunk. I woke up to the … More Feeding The Fire: Avoiding My Appetence
Ready. Set. Sail! Hey guys. Thanks for the supportive comments. I’m feeling a little better today. Still in a funk but practicing mindfulness. Friends and followers helped talk me through the depression and I upped my antidepressants so I’m coming back up. Not as bad as yesterday. Need more mood stabilizer I think because I’ve … More Huffington Post and IBPF Blogger Now!